Many thanks for author, blogger, and book podcaster Jean Lee for the opportunity to do this interview!
Tag: Personal Growth
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Feeling like a Fraud
Imposter Syndrome is something that’s been discussed many times by writers, and it is something that I wanted to talk about. Like so many others, I’ve been a victim of this. It’s a vicious cycle of looking at stuff I’ve done, hearing others praise it, and it all feels empty, like it isn’t really that good, or not good at all. At such times, I convinced myself that what I have done, what I’ve written, wasn’t worth the merit it’s received.
Typos have been a big source of that, more so because I began overanalyzing everything from word choice to sentence structure, even formatting. I decided I needed to change some internal formatting factors like margins and font size before Beneath the Deep Wave was published, and for the sake of consistency, to change them in Mystical Greenwood as well, resulting in a roughly 40-page deduction for both. It seems Mystical Greenwood was destined to have a checkered history, similar in some ways to films that have had decades worth of production behind them.
Another example of this feeling happened when, in recent years, I’ve seen books appearing on Amazon with people who have the same name as me, such as an academic book by an anthropologist and a short memoir by a British man discussing a traumatic childhood. At times, as a result, I’ve regretted not choosing a pen name or what I referred to as a “writer’s name,” meaning a different way to write my name.
Yet at the end of this regret and anxiety, every time I am reminded why I didn’t go that direction. My full name, Andrew Michael McDowell, is long, and there was a writer named Michael McDowell (not my dad). As for Andrew M. McDowell, well, because of the sound with which the letter M ending and beginning a name being the same, when said aloud, it’s as if they fuse and can’t be differentiated. Plus, before I became a writer, I’ve always introduced myself, and signed my name, as Andrew McDowell. And, at least, I’m currently the only Andrew McDowell in the Poets & Writers directory.
As for errors, well, I must remind myself that you can always fix them; everyone’s been printing them forever. I made the decisions I made which, at the time, were the right ones. Judging them by what is happening at present only causes anxiety, unless we can learn from them. But I cannot fault those decisions for being the right ones at the right time. At least I have let go…for now. Besides, imperfections show that I’m human, and if I look at famous movies and TV shows with goofs, continuity errors, etc., those haven’t prevented them from having the cultural impact they’ve had.
Worrying about things I’ve done is ultimately meaningless. I know I should be proud of all that I have accomplished. I am not perfect, nor do I need to be. I need to see both the trees and the forest. But still, sometimes, I worry. I’ve tried to be more positive, but I’ve not succeeded yet. I guess it means I’m learning and that I care. But I also cared enough about myself to know that I needed to let go of chasing perfection and just be happy. I still need to work on self-love. It is apparent to me that something I write someday could not be as favorably received (like Charles Dickens experienced with Martin Chuzzlewit), but I hope that won’t stop me from trying better next time. The key is to let go and move on.
I’ll be at a local author showcase sponsored by the Maryland Writers’ Association next week at Savage Mill. If you’re going to be in the area, I hope you can stop by.
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Smorgasbord Book Promotions 2024 – Share an Excerpt – #Fantasy – Beneath the Deep Wave (One with Nature Book 2) by Andrew McDowell
Many thanks to Sally Cronin for featuring an excerpt from Beneath the Deep Wave on her blog.
On a side note, I had a wonderful time at the Maryland Writers’ Conference this past weekend. I learned a lot about public appearances and signings, which I hope to put to good use in the future, and I sold six books!
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Evolution
You may be surprised to see this again, after I’d taken it down yesterday, having already posted this month. But I will explain my reasons further down.
In terms of this post’s title, I’m not talking about Darwin’s Theory of Evolution. Instead, I’m talking about evolving as a writer. Every writer’s life becomes a journey in itself, and just as they grow as people, they grow as writers.
I’ve always struggled with perfectionism and getting things right, and it feels extremely frustrating when things turn out not to be perfect. This is true with writing. I felt bad as I discovered errors, typos, and flaws in published work, but I’ve also discovered that it is natural for typos to appear and gradually be fixed. It turns out that books can and have been changed post-publication. Even I had a preconceived notion that books are static once published. Now I know that’s not true. I’ve had to read more and more about how to use language, as I’ve discussed once before, such as when it comes to redundant phrases or even synonyms that are not always truly the same.
It’s like what Mark Twain said, that the difference between the right word and almost right word is the difference between lightning and the lightning bug. He was right. Now that I have another book, I have expected that the same process might happen all over again, but hopefully not to the extent it was with my first. One does indeed learn a whole lot with one book, just as one learns from attending conferences and conventions.
The simple truth is I care about my writing, and I am willing to invest my own time to making it better. It has felt like a ping-pong process going back and forth, figuring out what works and what doesn’t. But I’ve persevered through it. Persistence and patience, I know now, are essential. No writer should rush to publication. I also have learned and accepted that I don’t need to be perfect, perhaps more so than before. I am at peace with that.
Now, for the almost nine years that this site has been up, I have stuck to posting once a month. However, after mistakenly posting this yesterday, I had a bit of a mini breakdown. Anyone who knows me knows I’m on the spectrum, and thus I’ve always preferred patterns and routines, and leaving them has set me off. However, yesterday’s events were another reminder to me of how much anxiety I can have, and I’m happy to say that over the past year I’ve been able to break free of some patterns and overcome some preferences.
This is now one of them. I understand now that this pattern of once a month reached a point where it was controlling me, not me controlling it. Therefore, if I am to be more positive and less perfect, if I am to evolve as a person and a writer, it’s time to let go. So from now on, no longer always one post a month. Sometimes there will be more, maybe sometimes not. But I feel it is the right choice.
Further Reading
- 5 Authors Who Edited Their Books After Publication
- 5 Novels that Were Totally Changed Years After Publication
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Reduce, Reuse, Recycle
Recycling is something we’ve been told since childhood is vital for protecting our Earth, and I don’t dispute that. Today, however, I want to talk about another kind of recycling, one which may serve writers well, especially if they are suffering writer’s block. This is literary recycling.
And no, I do not mean recycling entire plots or characters. Definitely not. That would be counterproductive. Every writer, in my opinion, ought to strive for something different in every project. Recycling entire plot structures or character arcs would not only be boring for readers but also indicate to them that the writer isn’t showing any growth in their art.
What can you recycle literary wise, then? Scenes, scenarios, passages, anything that will not simply fit during the editing process. This was something I first discovered during my long and checkered history of writing Mystical Greenwood. New scenes were written, and some were altered, characters removed, names changed, etc. All for the sake of pace and telling a better story. That left some passages cut through different drafts, ones which I simply couldn’t fit back into the story. But I liked them. I didn’t want to simply trash them.
Instead, I used some of them as starting points in Beneath the Deep Wave. And you know what? The same thing happened again! Some bits were moved around, and a few would no longer fit within. So I’ve decided to simply use them again, but this time for the third One with Nature book. A few others were also saved for other projects that I thought they would work better in. They simply would require a few tweaks, such as changing names or other factors to accommodate different settings and structures.
It’s a good feeling to not entirely throw out some words you’ve written, especially when it might be possible to fit them into a different puzzle, perhaps even better that what they might have been before. The only other thing I would caution is be careful not to inadvertently use the same plots or plot elements over again. When I first started my pets mystery in college, at some point I realized I was using some similar elements to my fantasy story. I knew I had to make some changes.
Don’t forget that Beneath the Deep Wave is coming out next month! One another announcement: I have reopened my social media accounts on Twitter/X and Tumblr, with the same usernames as before. It wasn’t an easy decision, nor a light one. I remember leaving them for the sake of my mental health, and in the former’s case, it hasn’t had the best reputation, especially since its rebranding. but I am also aware that I did gain followers and readers/reviewers on each. Hopefully, I will be able to use them now wiser than before. So, if you were following me there before, you can do so again. Don’t forget about my other sites as well.
To all my fellow Americans, I hope you had a happy 4th of July yesterday.
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Where Do I Go from Here?
With the new year coming, we always think about what we’re going to do differently. I’ve discussed resolutions before, but now I’ll speculate on where things may be going next for me as a writer.
Presently, the sequel to Mystical Greenwood is is in the hand of beta readers, and Fae Corps is aiming to release it in late August, just as the second edition of Mystical Greenwood was. Editing it had been my focus at the end of last year, and since I have always intended for the One with Nature series to be a trilogy, that means there will be one more book about Dermot and his fellow sorcerers.
But as I’ve said so many times, I don’t want to be confined to just one or two genres, so I do hope to venture out into all the others. I’ve had, over the years, different ideas for each, but I have discovered that I can only work on really one or sometimes two at a time. Many of them have really never come to fruition and remained solely based on themes or interests of mine that I’d like to pursue. Now, they could be late bloomers, but an episode of the Merry Writer Podcast from last year encouraged me to consider that I ought to be willing to let go of ideas that don’t grow. That could be.
True, I may not totally give up on all bits of them, but perhaps letting go can lead me to discovering new, better ones instead. Outside of One with Nature, that one mystery story involving abused pets has had the most attention, mainly because of how it had once been a college assignment. Still, I hope to finish it. Some of those themes previously mentioned are in mystery and horror, and I would like to do something in science fiction. I also hope to find some ways to dust off stories from history that, to me, aren’t as well known, but I admit that some of my favorite historical periods have been popular in fiction and film. I would also like to explore science fiction, but nothing concrete has formed in my head.
I won’t go into too many details, but just know that other ideas are there. Plus, they may not all be unique, something discussed in another good Merry Writer Podcast episode, but as long as I have some that I feel are unique, I’ll be content. Case in point, some reviewers of Mystical Greenwood described it as a typical fantasy hero’s journey, which it is, but that the focus on Nature made it stand out. Well, we’ll see where this year goes. Last year I resolved to be more positive and less worried about being perfect. I don’t believe I kept that. All I can do is try again and keep trying.
Many thanks to Sally Cronin for featuring Mystical Greenwood in her Christmas Book Fair. Enjoy this reading from earlier this week of a sneak peek from my next book. Happy Holidays to all!
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How to Format Your Manuscript (Video)
If you missed my presentation on manuscript and book format last month at the Maryland Writers’ Association Annapolis chapter, here it is on YouTube:
It was a hybrid meeting, both in-person and online, and it was my first time recording a presentation on Zoom. Here’s the handout:
For those of you who’ve been following me for some time now, if some of this sounds at all familiar, I did a post on this subject many years ago:
With the holidays approaching, I hope you’ll consider buying either Mystical Greenwood (remember, the second One with Nature novel is being edited!) or one of the anthologies that features my work, such as the Christmas anthology I mentioned that features one of my short stories, “The Red House.”
It’s on Goodreads too! This was a short story written during my high school years that I’d thought lost, along with “Crossing the Estuary” in Fae Dreams. But I rediscovered both, thankfully, and here they are.
I’m continuing to edit the sequel to Mystical Greenwood. Remember, the holidays will be coming, and books make great gifts! Be sure to browse my publications. Happy reading!
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Recent and Upcoming Appearances
Greetings, everyone. This month I’ve got some recent appearances as well as some upcoming ones to share.
First, here’s a sermon I gave at Nichols-Bethel United Methodist Church in which I discuss my journey, personally and in writing, with social media, as I have mentioned gradually in past posts, as well as with physical clutter, with references to The Social Dilemma and The Minimalists. Even if you aren’t Christian or religious, I hope you’ll be inspired to consider placing more value on the people in your lives than in your physical possessions and digital presence. If you have trouble with the volume, there is closed captioning.
Be sure to check out Minimalism, and, if you have Netflix, The Social Dilemma and Less Is Now.
Also, here’s another poetry anthology from Southern Arizona Press featuring my work!
I am scheduled to appear on a new episode of the Hidden Gems Author Podcast. Stay tuned. I will be sure to share a link.
Also, I will also be giving a presentation at the Annapolis chapter of the Maryland Writers’ Association next month on manuscript formatting. You can promote it on Facebook too. You can attend either in person or via Zoom. Hope to see you there!
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Architecture of a Website
Even before I had published my first novel, I was told by at least one friend at a Maryland Writers’ Association meeting that I should have a website first. Some followers of my Facebook page, which came first, wondered whether I had one. Now it’s approaching eight years of being up on the web. So how did I build it? If you are an aspiring writer looking to build your online presence, perhaps you’re wondering where to start? Well, I’m no architect, but I’ll help you lay a few solid foundations.
Here are some steps you can follow:
- Look at what other writers have done.
- See what you can do differently.
- Do what’s best for you and don’t be afraid to experiment.
- Be open to change.
It’s a good idea to do research. See what other writers have done. If you know any writers, ask them about their experiences, especially with their platforms. A few I knew through my connections had used WordPress and said good things about it, and at the time, it felt like a good platform to use. But there are others out there. So I looked at other sites to get a feel of what my own could include.
I should mention also that sometimes blog and website are used interchangeably, though there is a difference (like with memoir vs. autobiography). Websites, when you first visit them, place more emphasis on the pages, while a blog is all about the posts that come. That’s not to say a website can’t have a blog incorporated in it, but how you wish to market and share information helps you classify what your site/blog is.
Even though you should research other writers, don’t copy what they do exactly. Every writer’s site needs to be their own, in terms of content, display, and layout. I knew from the start that I had my own ideas even with what I had observed, and so I tried to merge them together. And it gradually evolved over time. I set myself a blog post a month because it worked and still works for me. I learned new things, and when WordPress made changes, such as moving from classic to block editor, I learned to evolve with them.
Websites and blogs are always changing (sort of like the Winchester Mystery House). What works one day may not work later on. That is not to say there should be some consistently and familiarity so people can return knowing what to expect. But mine has gone through several changes, including a change of domain name as well as two facelifts—I changed the theme twice, first after I wanted a theme that wasn’t like one site I’d observed in my research, and second (back in June) after learning the previous one had been retired and others that I follow had bugs with classic themes as opposed to hybrid ones. I even changed my color scheme so to ensure the site was readable. And in experimenting with different widgets, I chose to discontinue those labeled as “legacy” widgets when I discovered they sometimes disappeared in private browser mode or on a different browser.
Two final thoughts on building a website:
- Aim for clarity and readability so visitors can easily understand what they find and navigate through it. This can be done with menu arrangement and color schemes.
- Get feedback. You don’t always have to accept others’ thoughts on improving your site, but it never hurts to listen if they genuinely want to help improve it. That’s why I created my Happy Customers page.
Writing Update: My essay “Rivers Flowing with History” is featured in the new issue of the MWA‘s Pen in Hand. Don’t forget to sign up for their annual conference!
I’ll be giving a sermon at Nichols-Bethel United Methodist Church next Sunday at 9:30 Eastern Time. Tune in live if you can’t attend in person!
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Plot vs. Pants vs. Plants
It’s a question that all writers get asked at least once, including me. Some writers plan everything out in advance. Others make it up as they go, writing off the seat of their pants. It’s one of those things where writers seem to fall into one of two camps, it seems, similar to print vs. digital books when reading.
There are pros and cons for each method. With plotting, writers know exactly where they are going and able to consistently progress with their outlines, and so the likelihood of writer’s block is much smaller. I imagine that with some genres with plotlines or formulas already laid out, like the hero’s journey, historical fiction, or cozy mysteries, plotting might be easier for some. On the other hand, if the situation should arise where the writer doesn’t like where the story is progressing or even a specific element, starting over is even more difficult. I’ve encountered this feeling whenever I’ve grown dissatisfied with character names and wanted to rename them or other details, and often it feels like the only way I can move forward is to start over.
Being a pantser, in contrast, offers more freedom and flexibility. A story can develop more fluidly and build upon itself like a voyage of discovery. Opportunities for creativity are greater, but, as one would expect, so is the possibility of running into writer’s block. Most people I’ve met have expressed their surprise when they learn I’m not a full-blown plotter, because, as someone on the autism spectrum, I do prefer to plan ahead with many things, and have a preference for patterns and routines, in my life as a means to avoid anxiety. But life doesn’t always work out like that, and I get anxious anyway, so I have tried to not always have patterns, and some have been given up, I’m happy to say, because I’ve learned I don’t always need to have them.
Nevertheless, I’m also aware that even careful planning doesn’t always lead to things working as hoped for. But does that mean I’m a pantser? No, not entirely. Every writer has their preferences. Some see the first draft as their plotting, or seek a middle path, what is called a plantser. So perhaps this is like planting seeds and then watch them grow.
I don’t know if I even fall into that category. It could always change in the future. But I think that just like with print vs. digital books, we shouldn’t simply fall into camps because of what we prefer. Everyone has their preference and should be respected for it. I just write, and I am constantly seeking my own way, which is always evolving.
P.S. Check out the Moonstone Arts Center’s 2023 haiku anthology. It features five of mine! I also changed the site’s theme a few days ago. I hope you like it!
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